To be honest, I don’t really know what this post is about. Constant headaches nag me and waking up with baby heart attacks are unpleasant. I just don’t understand what’s going on in my life right now but what’s keeping me from losing my wits are my family and friends. Whenever and if ever you felt like giving up, what do you do? I have spent hours and days working on projects to distract me from boredom and I actually enjoy it. But now my work is eating me alive and I can’t break free. In addition, facing issues like finance and medical put together aren’t easy to overcome even if it is possible. No matter how hard I try to reach for it, a 20 year old expat who cannot speak the mother tongue of where she resides trying to make ends meet, the goal just keeps moving further and further away up to the point my motivation slowly disappears as if it hadn’t existed at all. I’m not giving up but I just feel like I am.